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Saturday, March 14th, 2009
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my little boy is bumping around all over my insides.
it feels like a heartbeat, rhytmic, but not entirely in sync or consistent.
how do i feel right now.
i'm happy. i'm optimistic. i'm loving my life right now.
truly, perspective is key in this life...
i could list infinite lines of worries and bore you to death with woes, but
when i think of these woes they are more like whines.
i have met and wed the love of my life. after 12 years i am happier than ever.
we complement one another wonderfully. we have learned the art of loving,
the art of conversation, the art of choosing battles. we have gone through
thick and thin a handful of times and each time brought new challenges.
i know that any future challenges are possible to overcome and that all we can
ever do is take things one day, one step at a time; whether it may take
5 steps or 500,000 steps, it is a matter of perseverance and patience.
i am allowing myself to revel in my current time of life.
i am having a baby.
i am having a baby with the love of my life.
i have waited years and years for this baby and
i am finally going to be able to meet him eye to eye, face to face, skin to skin, heart to heart.
our living situation is not ideal, but then again it is more than ideal.
today we had the chance to view some of the older apartments in the Marpole neighborhood
where we are currently living. i had high hopes, naive hopes... yes their prices ranged from
$780 - $900 compared to our $1200, but as much space as they provided, they were
1. not spacious enough to make up for their dinginess
2. spacious enough but way out of the question due to lack of upkeep
so for the time being, we are looking to reduce our furniture even further than we have
already done to free up all possible space until we find a solution to our living situation.
it seems the market is in a place wherein we MAY be able to afford to purchase rather than
throw our money away to rent.
at least this little guy will be fairly small and not inhabit a large area of space. if anything,
it will be his furnishings that we will be making extra room.
i can't complain. we are able to pay $1200, we have a new car, we have still managed to
make pricey clothing purchases, we have gone 10 steps beyond our past Value Village
shopping sprees and managed to live comfortably. there is no reason why we should not
be able to sacrifice here and there to accommodate the new financial changes we will soon
be faced with.
so i must be happy and grateful for all this.
if i complained about this situation, i should hope to be punished.
i am so very very lucky for all i have.
loving friends
loving family
good health
and i know i have so much more than this.
and perhaps i can begin to say that even in the loss of my dad, this simple emergence
of gratefulness for all i have is what has come out of this loss. i see more clearly what
is important in this life. i know where to look for happiness. i know where to look in
order to appreciate the things i have instead of looking in the dark for things that
i do not need. everything i could ever want is in my hands.
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Tuesday, September 4th, 2007
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uggghhh..... i don't wanna be at work more than ever.
morning has been pretty standard, no crazy things happening
albeit missed bookings which were handled reasonably quick.
so i have had my first lame "domesticating" experiences of which i am
taking close observations.
we had our first GORCERY SHOPPING experience last week which was
hilarious to me and frustrating as hell to kevin. we were able to
duck the "bachelor fridge" aka ALL CONDIMENTS hahahaha.
we did our first SHARED laundry which i was skeptical about due to my
sensitive/tender material clothings. but it turns out we both do two
loads which is basically light and heavy/work/denim with the additional
bedding/towels.
we made our first dinner last night. butter chicken. it was not as
spicy as we wanted but it was still good.
my sister made a last minute trip back for the long weekend. we went to
Hamilton Street Grill with all my cousins where we drank and took stupid
pictures, the usual. My sister then took Kev & I to AFTERGLOW where we
offed a pitcher of White Wine Lychee Sangria. This after blazing with
Jessica in the afternoon and packing in a huge lunch at the Reef.
currently rennovating our new bathroom.
going to IKEA this week/end to price out the dark textured bamboo tiles!!!
LANGLEY CRUISE IN THIS WEEKEND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
KARL!!!! WANNA CRUISE IN LUCY WITH US????? LET US KNOW!!!!!!!!!!
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Friday, August 31st, 2007
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me and rosemary in yaletown park, blazing and eating tapioca.
fucking this has been my only true SUMMER day
I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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i am so happy.
there are so many photos everywhere.
everyone had such a fantastic fun time.
everything went so well.
here are some photos from our photographers blog
ALONG WITH THE 3D MOVIE PROJECTION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
http://www.blueolivephotography.com/blog/
i'm so happy right now... from the sandwich board, to the 3D, the gallery, ZOMBIE WALK,
cupcakes and decor, dancing, and the sexy garter number... could not have asked for more :)
ps i have eaten a total of like 8 of my cupcakes this week.
IF ANYONE HAS ANY FOOTAGE OF THE GARTER TOSS PLEASE LET ME KNOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Sunday, August 26th, 2007
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Wednesday, August 22nd, 2007
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holy fuck.
i'm so excited.
you guys are going to get fucked in every orifice
you hold precious or nasty and you will love every second
begging for more on your knees like the little sluts you are......
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Sunday, August 12th, 2007
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fuckers. i "forgot" my phone at work TWICE this week, "forgot" because the first
time it was actually still in my bag. i'm a fucking loser. the second day Thurs i forgot it
and then was accidentally fit into SOMEONE ELSE'S dress!!!!!! i find this out on friday
alongside shipping out my shoes to exchange them for a smaller size, not realizing
"stephanie you need your shoes so they can hem your dress tomorrow to the shoes
will be wearing"
whatever. we used different shoes and it went swimmingly.
dress in white rock to vancouver
SO HAPPY TO SEE KARL BACK!!!!!!! she looked so happy and rested :)
went for lunch at The Reef with Karl JP Kim and Ian while kevin went to
get his hair cut and get a lame-ass shave from the Main/Fraser barbershop.
found skull scarves at Front & Company to wear at the reception woo hoo!!!!
300% cheaper than Alexander McQueen....
waited at Ladner Hospital from 5:30pm - 11:30pm for a fucking doctor to
look at kevin's eye for approximately 30 seconds. FUCK. wanker retards.
******
today
-guestbook
-favours
-wine labels
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Thursday, August 9th, 2007
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after 14 months, i finally had my training day!
3 kinds of chocolate
1. coating
2. couverture
3. pure
lots of really bad and hilarious illustrations
stuffing myself like crazy in the sample room with premium chocolate
as well as suffering through the crappy econo chocolate
ending the day back in the boardroom talking about stripjoints hahaha
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tummy ache
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Wednesday, August 8th, 2007
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totally didn't consider possibly getting sick.
new boss and old boss and shipper/receiver all which
are within a 15 feet radius of me at all times are all sick.
one has a cough
one has what might develop into the flue
one has a viral infection from his wife
asian powers don't fail me now
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Tuesday, August 7th, 2007
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i am achine with blue balls of madness to post photos of Lucy
but kevin will rape me with a spiked bracelet from 1999 if i do.
WEEKEND
-HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRONWEN
-pinata filled with condoms and chocolate
-almost died scaline 100 year old fallen trees on the closed off
section of the sea wall
-drinking and dancing to forget the sea wall
TODAY
-dropped off music with dustin
-paid for cupcakes at Kreation (bought delicious hazlenut cookie brownies)
-dropped off chocolate fountain for danielle's wedding, hung out with
Danielle and her adorable as fuck little Jack
-getting hooked up with my cousin's friend who does wedding coord/planning
for extra help for set up
-currently working on GUESTBOOK layout
TOMORROW
-dress fitting
THURSDAY
-Danielle's Wedding!!!
FINAL HEAD COUNT DUE THIS FRIDAY!
GUESTBOOK NEEDS TO BE COMPLETE BY THIS WEEKEND!
NEED TO FINISH GALLERY PIECES, HAVE READY FOR SET UP!
RAH RAH RAH.
some gays
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Thursday, July 26th, 2007
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Wednesday, July 25th, 2007
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be weary of nearby hand-held interac machines for if you drop them on
cheap urban outfitter flats (basically no barrier to elements) the
interac machine seriously break your big toe.
in other words. this is my NEW boss. he is so rad i love him so much.
this is him photoshopped into me and jimin's birthday in the lunchroom LOL
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im' starting to get hibby hibby shakes from freaking out.
up til 2am friday doing arts & crafts to the background of
ice age 2 and memoirs of a geisha. got kevin's mom flowers and
balloons and yummy rapsberry choco torte for her birthday.
up and in langley at 9am saturday and all the way back to vancouver
to get kevin's dad's shoes exchanged and pants measured for alterations.
bought kevin his 10 year gift: $300 ukulele.
it's so fucking beautiful and adorable!!!!! now he can bring it to
Cuba with us and serenade me on the beach with our pet mojitos :)
i'm so excited, i am going to compile a tiny book with ukulele chords
as well as a bunch of love songs i found on the internet
we had rad brunch with bronwen, karl & JP @ Sophie's, i got crusted on
the orange juice champagne like a fucking loser. went GRAVITY POPE
and suckered Bronwen into buying a pair of hot black pumps wtih me hee hee!!
the next 24 hours consisted of me crying and screaming and throwing
furniture prior to meeting up with our photographers who fixed
EVERYTHING THANK GOD. I LOVE THEM.
after 5 hours scouring town with them we chillaxed at Amanda and Jason's
new and so-awesome-it-makes-me-cry pad for her birthday.
another weekend come and gone and next week is August.
our roommates i think hate sharing the bathroom as much as we do,
kevin got home last night to find our ensuite is now a hallway to
the kitchen. yessssssssssssssssssssss......
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AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!
AAAHHHHHHH! AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!AAAAHHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHH!!!!!!!
I'M SO FUCKING HAPPY RIGHT NOW
I FEEL LIKE I WON A MILLION DOLLARS
I'M SO FUCKING FUCKING HAPPY
THE CAR IS LIKE A FUCKING WET DREAM I JUST WNT TO SLEEP
ON IT AND CRY TO IT AND TELL IT ALL MY DEEPEST SECRETS
AND SOMEONE GOT ME THE FUCKING VERA WANG GLASSES I FEEL LIKE
SCREAMING MY HEAD OFF AND ROSEMARY WILL BE HERE IN LIKE SIX
FUCKING DAYS AND IT'S OUR 10 YEAR ANNI NEXT FRIDAY
AND MY CUPCAKE TOPPERS WILL BE COMING IN SOON AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!
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See the way he walks down the street
Watch the way he shuffles his feet
My, he holds his head up high
When he goes walking by
He's my guy
When he holds my hand, I'm so proud
'Cause he's not just one of the crowd
Why is he always the one
To try the things they've never done?
Just because of that, they say
He's a rebel and he'll never ever be any good
He's a rebel 'cause he never ever does what he should
Just because he doesn't do what everybody else does,
That's no reason why I can't give him all my love
He's always good to me,
Always treats me tenderly
'Cause he's not a rebel, no no no
He's not a rebel, no no no, to me
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WOO HOO
-hair trial fucking awesome. taking jimmy lapointe at axis
-picking up mom from airport aka GET MY SHOES
-i'm stoned
-ate pho with ainge
-cured my bladder infection
-listening to rockabilly without a bra on
-jerry lee lewis
BOOOOOOOOOoooouuurns
-dude to paint Lucy apparently did not come home from holidays as
scheduled therefor Lucy is not painted :(
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Wednesday, July 11th, 2007
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painting the bottom this weekend. fucking raaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaddddddddd.
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thanks you guys. that was honestly the nicest thing that anyone has
done for me. i have never been so surprised while so high.
*smitten*
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i have to stop eating chocolate but basically it is my coffee.
it is my morning jump start and my 3pm brick wall escape.
my teeth are hurting. i am going to the dentist this saturday
after hiding for about 3,4 maybe 5 years. i think all my fillings
or whatever have been grinded off and now my teeth are nakey!!!!!!
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enthralled.
uncomfortable.
exhausted.
INSANE.
relaxed.